Moment of truth. I have an addiction.
"Hello my name is Jordan Debbink and I am a freedom-loving controller."
It's a very common addiction, though we often are not aware of it until someone else says that we are. I am even more responsible than most because I have known about my addiction for a long time....and yet done nothing to curb the cravings.
Here is how it works. I begin with a new situation come in calmly, respectful and normally dormant in my abilities. I observe for a time, getting to know the crowd i am socializing amongst and as time continues i store aware valuable pieces of information that later i can use.
Once i have spent the time understanding people....and truly that is what i am doing, i then plow forward with a really passionate well prepared plan to introduce a new project,..or assist someone who is in need. Up to this point i truly believe my motives are truly sincere and only in an attempt to advocate.
My subconscious at this point takes over and i lose my ability to not micro manage, control the situation.
I probably sound pretty normal to you,... something that we all struggle with at times,... and yes you are right. But as i have said before, i am so aware that i do this and yet i do not attempt to stop.
I am a freedom lover. I follow no party affiliation when it comes to politics, i believe no Christian church is better than the rest, and i do believe our country is a land still full of opportunity.
I do expect people follow their heart and be conscientious when they vote on issues. I expect churches to cater to all demographics, and preach Biblical teachings and be less concerned over appearance and numbers. And when you make your new life in this country i expect you follow the laws that are set up to do so.
So am i a freedom loving controller?
" Love is Patient, Love is Kind."