Sometimes we just get to full of ourselves...... and by sometimes I mean at some point in every day i need to be taken down a few notches. I walk around acting so arrogantly perfect sometimes and it's so selfish. I am additionally at fault because i am so aware of it when it is happening. Now i am not saying that i am a "know it all" type of person, who in the end turns out to know nothing. I do my research and am very good at what i do. I truly believe that i was created on purpose to serve others.
But I sit up in the tallest tower of the castle that i have built for myself and i see the world from an often times "black hat" lens. It is truly a structure of convenience. I build it up every day. The walls are rock hard, and the towers are strong against the storms. I stock it with pride, self worth, unyielding conviction and a whole arsenal of research and experience that will aid me in my day. I take these with me from place to place as i go about my obligations. They keep me from embarrassment, my greatest fear. Some of these views i have because of past scenarios and the ways i have chosen to deal with them. Others are just inherent sinful nature. But i doubt its capability to protect me. To keep me from hurting, from feeling unwanted, from becoming a burden to someone else.
Wow....i sound like a horrible person. Or perhaps an honest one? The more i live and make decisions that affect my world and those within it, the more i realize how often i need to be humbled. How great it is that i am a benefactor of God's greatest gift to mankind. And i can choose to accept it for strength every day, I just need to let my Castle Crumble.
My Castle just needs to Crumble.
"Love is Patient. Love is Kind"